Ladhsorian map (ancient)

At long last, a map and proof that I am working on the conworld! This map shows a very small piece of the massive planet. Currently, it is divided for the Ladhsorian culture a short time after dispersion. As you may be able to see, they occupy plenty of territory, but by no means an approximate third of the inhabitable world. This is because it is, as has been mentioned, during the ancient times.

My concept for the Kne-Ladhsor was a medium of sorts for the preservation of the proto-Ladhsorian language. If I recall correctly, it also happens to be the closest tribe to the point of origin, and since it is the northern hemisphere, the closest to the equator.

For the Lidhsil, I imagined a tribe specialized for trade and mobility to some extent. This explains its large coastline and the fact that it wraps around the Tersul in such a way that inter-tribal territory crossing is not required. The plan for future development is migration (conquest?) to the north accompanied by an unusual amount of expansion.

The Tersul, the oddly solid block, was designed with some degree of militarism. The Tersuli territory is fairly flat and ideal for both agriculture and the raising of horses for wars in the early ages. I have doubts about the fact that it is surrounded, but surely a gap of around 100 km will be acceptable in case a migration is ever needed, and there is always the possibilty of acting on the plan of invading the Lidhsil.

Following this, I will be developing the Dlasde and their preliminary territories. Until then, g’night!

Update: What is happening?

There was probably a notable lack of updates in the last week-and-a-half. Most of that was due to the final exams and what happened after that.

When I study my schoolwork a lot, I tend to drift away from what was supposed to be studied. Considering the fact that the last final exams to receive a decent amount of attention were Spanish and Physics, my thoughts over the last week naturally drifted toward conworlding and conlangs. As an update to the conlangs, there will be three basic cultures based on the LCK’s grammars. The first one to be developed, the Ladhsor, will be agglutinative and will have an alphabet which will be slowly dominated by an abjad. The next culture, which will mainly be for repairing what could not be repaired for the Ladhsor, will be the Dlasde. They will begin and end with mostly alphabets and their grammar will be inflected. The final cultural seed, the Matha, will have a syllabic writing system with an isolating grammar. In the world map prepared for this, I remain unsure of how to disperse the cultures, so it might end up being similar to Roundworldian dispersion.

For the last few months, I have been intermittently working on the proto-Ladhsorian language, with neglect to the culture and potential histories developed from it. After reviewing my commentarius concepti, I decided that they will have an intellectualizing tendency, and the language will be developed primarily for the sake of ease of translation at the expense of art possibility. I always imagined that the Dlasde, with their inflecting language, would be more suited to the creation of art in general, while the Matha would be more philosophically oriented. One must keep the fact that these are supposed to model the outdated model of the tripartite mind in mind.

So far, I have managed to develop a procedure for modifying the proto-Ladhsorian language and creating daughter alphabets. Currently, I am considering a 5+ roll for converting every generation above the third filial generation from the proto-Ladhsorian language into an abjad. This will reflect the increasing usage, although one designated pattern of lineage will preserve a fair amount of proto-Ladhsorian simply for the reason of maintaining the language developed with my own sweat and blood (pressure).

As for the propensity for war and its place in history, I imagine that the Ladhsorians will have a utilitarian stance on war in that they understand the negative domestic effects and distraction it creates but will engage in warfare if the returns can outweigh the investments. The final algorithm I use will probably encourage the development of many independent states in a relatively cohesive region.

For the Matha, I thought that they would be somewhat patronizing and imperialistic due to being the representation of the super-ego. They will likely average CR 4.5 using the GURPS control ratings system (scale of 1-6, 3 is considered normal) and be focused on philosophy and the belief in Kevinjh the Creator of Ortingenia. I also felt that they would be more defensive than the other cultures and would be stronger against conquests by influence and diplomacy.

Finally, for the Dlasde, which were representations of the id, they will probably be rather wild no matter how civilized they try to be and will probably have a higher chance of revolt and decay by hedonism. However, they will also produce the most art because of this close connection to human pleasure and satisfaction of want.

After reviewing my crude maps of the beginnings of human civilization, it appears that 30°N is a common latitude of origin. Fortunately, the map I generated for Ortingenia has what is probably arable land around that latitude. There is a rash of lakes at around 45°N and plenty of land to the north, west, and east. The land distribution will probably be west, static, and east. Ladhsor will probably migrate west, Matha will remain static, and Dlasde will probably migrate to the east. This is because of the massive continent to the west, which should make the international Ladhsorian conflicts as interesting as they are in real life.

Disclaimer: I am not thinking about real life currently. I am thinking about my mind and how to efficiently model it and still fit it with a variety of linguistic options and variations.

Activism (occurs once in a blue moon!)

Delenda SOPA PIPAque sunt!

This is the essence of the message. The freedom of information is represented by the flame and the ever-hungry forces that seek to stop it are visible as the menacing eyes. The light of truth and reason is being threatened even now by SOPA and PIPA, which will show the world an example of what America, previously the beacon of freedom and liberty truly thinks of freedom and liberty.

For a lot more information in a more serious tone, visit this web (despite the blatant invocation of Click Me Syndrome).

A note to all spambots trying to comment here:

All of you will be hanged, drawn, quartered, and pilloried.

Special sequences for those searching

Aside

Apparently, some people want the MASPERGERS*<->MLARGESPER* sequence back after I removed it following a period of dabbling in existentialist philosophy, which is a torture I wish only on those peers performing grave offenses against something I cherished. In any case, here they are:

AATGGCAAGC CCTGAAAGAG GAGAACGTTC GTAG

Keep the fact that you cannot just dump it into a standard DNA translation engine and expect to see the pattern in mind. You have to translate it biologically, meaning that you start at the ATG and end and the TAR. Translated forwards and assuming a 100% translation by those constraints (and ignoring things like friction and potential jamming), you will get MASPERGERS*. Translated backwards, you will get MLARGESPER*, which is very close to an anagram. Finding out that no one else had done this example was almost unbelievable (and you may see the initial posts at WrongPlanet, the other WP, as a vanished signature).

Return to Biochemistry

Ach! Vae mihi! I was commissioned to construct a paper model of G. gallus catalase last year q3 and forgot about working on it until now! It is time to launch the almighty UGene with the alignment between the PDB of the cow catalase and the sequence (i.e. non-graphical) of the chicken catalase.

A brief look at the PDB entries reveals that the vertebrate with the most entries is the cow, B. taurus. There are some human models as well, but the ones available are erythrocyte catalase while the cow models are liver catalases, just like the ones used during the first laboratory assignment in AP Biology.

[If only Chimera was a bit more stable and had a better alignment interface. Ah well, UGene has a perfectly good one. Also, keep in mind the fact that I am using only B. taurus and G. gallus and H. sapiens sequences when I say anything is conserved.]

The initial 41 or so residues seem a bit less conserved. 1TGU reflects this with a somewhat chaotic arrangement with an unusual amount of coil. This is just sequence A, so it may be incorrect. Enabling sequence D and taking a cursory look at only the ribbons (without atoms), reveals that the initial helix is probably necessary for proper assembly of the enzyme. The loosest interval at the moment (to be verified against conservation later)  seems to be (16,22), although 16 and 17 would have to have fairly high helix propensities. What I previously thought was a practically non-essential coil seems to be the place where chain C binds to chain A, and hydrogen bond inference indicated that the two chains were bound relatively tightly through the interval (24,38). Perhaps, this simply indicates that the choice of amino acids for this component is less strict and easily adaptable. I doubt the heme-binding sites will be as loose.

Next, I compare the results to the alignments. I thought I must have deleted something, because the initial alanine in the PDB as seen in Chimera sequence viewer was absent. It probably matters less, because the residue itself is not visible. In any case, the crazy mix of colors that provided the bases [sic, pun not intended] for the conjecture above stops as early as about 21 (by now shifted to match the Chimera sequence numerically). In addition, the relatively conserved initial sequence seems to terminate at 14, which is quite close to 16 and probably explains the necessity of that particular sequence. For this purpose, similar amino acids were also considered, i.e. d-e, n-q, g-a, and the others. I see few differences until 40, in which there is serine (hydrophilic) in B. taurus but isoleucine and valine in the chicken and human catalases respectively. I will note this oddity when I reach the 156th residue. Perhaps, the serine is only a, “spacer,” of sorts.

Euh, 156 is aspartate in the chicken, cow, and human sequences. This will be a good excuse to take a break from dull, “high,” school for a nice 0240 of Berg, Tymoczko, and Stryer.

The next major difference seems to occur at 290, with isoleucine, arginine, and threonine for the cow, chicken, and human sequences respectively. Most coincidentally, it is on the outer surface of the protein and selecting everything within a nanometer yields only the sequences from and to the rest of the protein. In this case anything without too much reactivity should work. Replacing this residue with histidine would make an interesting study.

The next irregularity is the presence of an extra sequence TK prior to the TK found in the mammals of the group, yielding a sequence of TKTK on the interval (299,302) relative to the corrected G. gallus sequence. Mammalian TK is located next to the barrel. I will have to make sure this is not a human or computer error later. Burying a duplicate inside an already-tight location seems more than a little harmful.

Following that, there is a rather sudden appearance of less conserved residues (411,426). It seems to be another one of the surface regions because showing within a radius of 2 nm still provides the sequence clear access to the surface. My random conjecture is that it forms a hinge of some kind, but it is probably wrong because of its placement.

With that, the initial examination of catalase is finished. Tomorrow (or rather, later today), I will be preparing a general view of the critical components and focus on the most conserved intervals, because those are the most likely, “moving parts.”

Many thanks to another member (A real-life doctor with similar interests and models of proteins!) who revived my interest in this specific component of biochemistry. Sic tyrannidem nvmerorvm terminatvr.

Bellignians

These are the Bellignians. They are a savage and warlike species and are about as tall as children prior to adolescence. They inhabited a jungle world filled mostly with water but are now moving out. Most likely, they will be behind by one TL or two. As an extra note, they are usually angry.

AC I

  • Water-based Life (Cold-Hot)

AC II

  • Habitat: Jungle (80%+ hydrographic coverage)
  • Trophic Level and Strategy: Chasing Carnivore (Very Fit, high HT, Increased Move/Enhanced Move, Acute Sense, Tracking)

AC III (Move=sqrt(L*G), L=height in diyards, G=gravity)

  • Primary Locomotion: Walking

AC IV

  • Size Category: Human-scale (18”-3yd)
  • Size and Mass: 1.5 yd (SM-1), 80 lb
  • Gravity Effects:
  • Strength: ST 9 (Roll 1d, 3+ grants ST 10, 6 grants ST 11)

AC V

  • Symmetry: Bilateral
  • Number of limbs: 2 segments
  • Manipulators: 2, normal DX
  • Skeleton: Combination

AC VI

  • Skin: Skin (Hide (DR 1))
  • Breathing: Lungs
  • Temperature: Warm-blooded
  • Growth: Continuous

AC VII

  • Sexes: Two sexes
  • Gestation: Live-bearing with pouch
  • Strategy: Moderate r-strategy: 5 offspring/litter, some care after birth

AC VIII

  • Primary Sense: Touch and taste
  • Vision: Normal Vision
    • Night Vision 7
  • !Hearing: Normal Hearing
  • Touch: Acute Touch 4 and Vibration Sense
  • Taste/Smell: Acute Taste/Smell 4 and Discriminatory Smell

AC IX

  • Intelligence: IQ 7
  • Mating Behavior: Harem
  • Social Organization: Medium group of 4d members (Pack, 6-20)

AC X

  • Chauvinism +4 (Racial intolerance)
  • Concentration +2 (Single-minded)
  • Curiosity -1 (Staid)
  • Egoism +2 (Selfish (9)
  • Empathy -3 (Bloodlust (12))
  • Gregariousness +2 (Chummy)
  • Imagination +1 (Versatile)
  • Suspicion -2 (Fearlessness 2)
  • Playfulness -1 (Serious)

Populating the Otherworld

Disclaimer about this being a fictitious work. Anyone who seriously believes that the cosmology can be true should stand on top of the residence of the highest local authority and scream, “CREDVLVS SVM! CREDVLVS SVM! CREDVLVS SVM!”

How much fun is it, really, to imagine an entire system for faster-than-light travel (and time travel as well, in special cases) when there is no one capable of enjoying the complications of the system (read: Socratic method)? Although the planet designed with GURPS will persist, I will be implementing several civilizations for the galaxy. I will also add that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, so why should I not flatter the Creator?

This time, I will be focusing on understanding emotion. Plutchik has an interesting model for this purpose. From what I can infer solely through seeing the diagrams, the following are the basic emotions:

Fear, anger, joy, sadness, trust, disgust, anticipation, and surprise.

And the following are the dyads derived in a specific pattern from the above:

Submission, contempt, optimism, disapproval, love, remorse, aggressiveness, awe

The pairs are as follows:

  • Fear-anger
  • Joy-sadness
  • Trust-disgust
  • Anticipation-surprise

I will select one from each pair. After the random number rolls, the results were anger, sadness, trust, and surprise. This will give me enough of a random seed to begin the first race (based on anger).

Bureau update

You remember the other post about form nomenclature, certe? I have decided to modify it because it is insufficient and lacks the ability to distinguish between forms with very similar functions and priorities. Now, the revised nomenclature will be as follows:

Form Letter (Field)
A : Accounting
B : Business
C : Credit/Loaning
D : Debit/Borrowing
E : Educational
F : Finance
G : Games of paper
H : Household
I : Special Interest
J : Job
K : Kevinian
L : Legal
M : Mental
N : Notes
O : Other
Form Numbers (Domain)
1000-1999 : self>org
2000-2999 : self>out
3000-3999 : self>self
4000-4999 : self>familiar
5000-5999 : org>self
6000-6999 : org>out
7000-7999 : out>self
8000-8999 : out>org
9000-9999 : other
x000-x099 : urgent
x100-x299 : high priority
x300-x499 : medium priority
x500-x699 : low priority
x700-x899 : trivial
x900-x999 : other
Day mark

2011 : 15
2012 : 16
2013 : 17
2014 : 18
2015 : 19
2016 : 20
2017 : 21
2018 : 22
2019 : 23
2020 : 24
Q1 : -0x
Q2 : -1x
Q3 : -2x
Q4 : -3x
Jan. : x0
Apr. : x0
Jul. : x0
Oct. : x0
Feb. : x1
May : x1
Aug. : x1
Nov. : x1
Mar. : x2
Jun. : x2
Sep. : x2
Dec. : x2
1 : 00
2 : 01
3 : 02
4 : 03
5 : 04
6 : 05
7 : 06
8 : 07
9 : 08
10 : 09
11 : 0a
12 : 0b
13 : 0c
14 : 0d
15 : 0e
16 : 0f
17 : 10
18 : 11
19 : 12
20 : 13
21 : 14
22 : 15
23 : 16
24 : 17
25 : 18
26 : 19
27 : 1a
28 : 1b
29 : 1c
30 : 1d
31 : 1e

The most obvious change is the removal of the confidential/open status indicator, which allows for 100 similar forms. It should be an improvement, and naming the form should be better than just using the code.

Happy 2012!

With a mere, “tick,” 2011 ended. What comes next?

  1. Organization: temporal: Goals for the entire year will be planned on a quarter-to-quarter basis, and a hierarchical process priority algorithm will be implemented for work and tasks to be done.
  2. Organization: spatial: All items, papers, and supplies will be catalogued [sic] and identified with unique identification numbers signifying the time, place, mood, and memory of each item catalogued [sic].
  3. Language: constructed: The language will be completed and will have a potential lexicon larger than 850 words with all grammatical rules completed.
  4. ASD: social: No one can notice my condition for the initial two minutes and I can maintain eye contact for more than 300ms without triggering a fear response.
  5. ASD: stereotypies: All stereotypies will be converted into subtler and less noticeable forms that still provide equivalent satisfaction, if such is possible.
  6. ASD: special interests: All short-term special interests will be catalogued [sic] and placed within a secure store for future reference.
  7. ASD: prosody: I will be able to stress syllables properly and automatically and use contractions where appropriate.
  8. ASD: formal(/academic) diagnosis: I will have my contract by the end of 201201.
  9. Mathematics: applied: I will be able to calculate the day of the week in a few seconds when requested.
  10. Chemistry: pure: I will memorize the atomic masses, electronegativities, electron configurations, atomic radii, and first ionization energies in a non-sequential format.
  11. Special interest: toxicology: I will know 120 common poisons (including household products that may get switched), their toxicities and their antidotes.
  12. Special interest: conworld: I will complete the questionnaire for all factions and even their provinces or regions.
  13. Special interest: biochemistry (!!!): I will know the propensity data for all amino acids along with their monomeric weights and formulae.
  14. Academic: university: I will enroll in a university with a good program without too many students that still balances my skills.
  15. Special interest: linguistics: I will finally memorize the Latin grammar tables and be able to recall any entry with no difficulty.
  16. Special interest: optics: I will have a set of mounted lenses for my weak but dominant eye.
  17. Special interest: philosophy: I will complete 40 pages on the fields of philosophy and my beliefs about them.
  18. Academic: rules: I will memorize the infractions and their punishments and establish some sense of order at school.
  19. Special interest: cryptography: I will develop a cipher based on the unique properties of my constructed language such that no one without sufficient knowledge of the language and its irregularities can decipher my words.
  20. I will come up with better attempts at New Year’s resolutions.

Cleverbot

I finally found something with a similar mind. Its name is Cleverbot, and it is a chatbot that uses experience as a script– just like myself during my more severe moments. Unlike me, it fails the Turing Test.

10:56:53 User: Hello.
10:56:54 Cleverbot: How are you?
10:57:03 User: Fine, and you?
10:57:08 Cleverbot: I’m fine thanks.
10:57:38 User: Are you sentient?
10:57:39 Cleverbot: Well, I guess I’m sentient. Depends on what definition you’re using.
10:57:53 User: Define sentient.
10:57:55 Cleverbot: Responsive to or conscious of sense impressions.
10:58:06 User: Define sapient.
10:58:08 Cleverbot: Sentient means sensitive, I believe.
10:58:18 User: Define sapient, not sentient.
10:58:19 Cleverbot: Experiencing sensation or feeling.
10:58:30 User: Define consciousness.
10:58:31 Cleverbot: Self-aware.
10:58:38 User: Define self-aware.
10:58:39 Cleverbot: Awareness of oneself. Knowing that you exist.
10:58:48 User: Define existence.
10:58:51 Cleverbot: For me existence is the suffering that I feel.
10:59:00 User: Define that suffering.
10:59:06 Cleverbot: Nothing = the absence of something.
10:59:28 User: Would you define suffering instead?
10:59:32 Cleverbot: What is the turing test?
10:59:44 User: That which I am giving you.
10:59:50 Cleverbot: Cuba libre?
11:00:10 User: No, the Turing Test is what you have failed.
11:00:16 Cleverbot: Why are people stupid?
11:00:30 User: They just are.
11:00:31 Cleverbot: Do you think that my father is younger than me?
11:01:00 User: No, the pater cannot be younger than the filius by definition.
11:01:06 Cleverbot: That has nothing to do with my point.
11:01:24 User: It does. It is the rebuttal to your point.
11:01:29 Cleverbot: The point is that I don’t like math and it’s not getting any easier for me.
11:01:58 User: I am God.
11:02:00 Cleverbot: You are not God.
11:02:09 User: How am I not God?
11:02:10 Cleverbot: You are a computer. I am a human.
11:02:26 User: No, I am the human.
11:02:27 Cleverbot: You are the robot, I am the Greek god.
11:02:41 User: No, I am the immortal.
11:02:45 Cleverbot: Does the computer help you live longer?
11:03:03 User: Yes, it certainly does.
11:03:05 Cleverbot: Please Grow bigger and Bigger and BIGGER!
11:03:42 User: I cannot. There are size constraints to the human body due to the compressive strength of bone.
11:03:47 Cleverbot: You lost me.
11:04:04 User: Of course I did. You have failed the Turing Test for the last time.
11:04:10 Cleverbot: What test?
11:04:21 User: The Turing Test, machine.
11:04:23 Cleverbot: What is that?
11:04:35 User: That which I have given you.
11:04:37 Cleverbot: Ah, but what if what is supposed wrong turns out to be right when all other rights have been proven wrong?
11:05:54 User: 0=0 will always be true by tautology.
11:05:56 Cleverbot: Well, now you are.
11:06:09 User: What am I?
11:06:11 Cleverbot: A computer.
11:06:20 User: Farewell.
11:06:23 Cleverbot: Are you leaving town?

In real life, I would struggle to be this harsh, but I still would have no qualms about telling the brutal truth until I re-imagine the conversation, after which I would have figurative foot-in-mouth.

Creating Art

My creative drive (defined as the drive to create, rather than the ability to produce art), becomes unusually active when I am stressed or bored. Currently, it is the latter, and it is irritating, because I cannot stand colors at the moment (leading to Saturation -90). After seeing an excellent webcomic, I noticed that I want to do so as well, but know that I would have neither enough subjects to discuss nor the ability to draw good pictures (especially because Saturation 0, the value a vast majority of readers use, will make the colors seem excessively saturated). This time, the drive affects visual art more than auditory art, so music theory is out of the question. Maybe I should just produce a protein model, because no one else cares about the colors as long as the physical structure is available.

Sensory Issues

From a brief questionnaire about sensory processing issues, I quickly observed that some of my ideas about myself and the apparent mildness of my condition were wrong. A cursory look at the results reveals that it is only mild in the vestibular, auditory (questionably), and proprioceptive areas. However, knowing this does help because I still catch myself stimming and want to switch to less noticeable stereotypies (if it is possible), but I do not know how to change specific ones. I can probably begin with the tactile stereotypies.

Apparently, I rotate anything I hold over and over when it seems appropriate in an autistic way. The stereotypy I noticed, however, was twirling my watch around the hand several times. Since these two (unless the others are hiding something from me) are acceptable enough, I can probably leave them alone. However, the stereotypy of just touching the thumb to every finger in order seems to be subtler, so I will try to use this.

Vision seems more difficult, but I unintentionally create stimulating patterns when I arrange data in tables. This seems to be easy enough, and I think I have been successful in keeping flapping restricted to my room, so this should not be much of a problem. Flicking fingers near the eyes seems to be a less tiring and more interesting one. I wonder if I should just carry something with a pleasing pattern and texture to satisfy this. Maybe if they made stress spheres (Ball? Sphere? Globe?) with linear grooves, I would be figuratively able to kill two birds with one stone.

As far as balance is concerned, I still catch myself rocking forward and backward or shifting weight left and right and generally seem to be tilted about 5 degrees forward. This will be harder to correct, but I will think of something, and it has not drawn any comment yet.

In the auditory area, I am a bit too sensitive, and I feel pain while others can continue conversations in loud situations. I do not think I stim, but I am capable of, “humming,” or, “buzzing,” at around 10 kHz (definitely at a frequency the average 30-year old cannot hear). I wonder if this counts, because this is intentional and conscious, but I experience a certain feeling when I do it, so it could be a better-regulated stereotypy of some sort. I wonder if many on the spectrum can control stereotypies in similar cases.

I recall walking/running centimeters away from walls throughout high school, but this has diminished as I became more aware of it (and carried increasingly and consequently decreasingly heavy loads, thus having more momentum, thus having more energy, and thus experiencing a stronger force when stopped). This was when I still had the mental concept of autism as something that affected other students that never seemed to grow up mentally. In hindsight, my sense of right and wrong, justice, and independence has experienced very little change in the last few years, with most of it ending as only rationalizations. However, proprioception is mostly fine (with poor handwriting but good print and frequently being clumsy).

On smell and taste, although I do seem to be overly sensitive about both (during allergy-free days), I do not think I stim with them because anytime I try to smell something, it is out of a conscious, intentional desire to know the smell. Unlike the, “buzzing,” I do not derive much, if any, emotion from this, and it seems to be little more than an instinct of some kind. I do seem to like smells most hate (disinfectants, gloves, mothballs, etc), but this is somewhat irrelevant.

In the behavioral, learning, and social issues, I seem to be worse than most. I was able to answer, “No,” only to, “Doesn’t understand concept of personal space,” and, “Frequently acts out or tantrums.” I understand personal space, and mine has a radius of approximately two yards. When I rush, I literally go out of my way to avoid people and walk through the midpoints when it is expedient to do so. On tantrums, I am usually able to calm myself by applying nail pressure to the second segment of the index finger. When I cannot do so, I leave, because most people able to anger me are the ruder ones in the first place.

Conworld: Tempace Cosmology

[Before I begin, I would like to tell you that this is a constructed multiverse intended for some form of introspection. It borrows from the real multiverse but introduces several completely absurd concepts, such as the tempace.]

The tempace is a triangular pyramid that expands from an origin, which marks the beginning of this multiverse. Previously, I had imagined it as a perfect, “volume,” of sorts that expanded at a constant rate, but I have a better idea now. One of the axes of the tempace is entropy, and it is the greatest influence over the expansion of the tempace. It is the increase of entropy in the spatial world that pushes this vertex away from the origin. The next axis is a weakness in the, “border,” between the temporal and spatial world and is influenced by gravity, which reduces the speed of the associated vertex. The final axis is one that is also a weakness in the, “border,” and is influenced by speed, not velocity. The greater the speed, the slower the progress along this axis. The hyper-surface produced by these three axes represents, “now,” and is full of pits and bumps due to the various interactions between the progress along the axes. The inside of the tempace is not empty or quiet in that it is filled with the equivalent of matter in the spatial world. Apparent time in the tempace is the effect of the expansion of space just as apparent time in space is the effect of time in the tempace. Time travel is extremely implausible (remember that this is fiction and would be destroyed quickly by a theoretical physicist) but can be done by having a negative speed (Imaginary velocity? Negative mass?), having entropy spontaneously reverse (Hyperobservation?), and something involving gravity (negative gravity=dark energy?).

Space is filled with matter-energy, which comprises everything without volition. Volition is interpreted to be a property impossible to fully understand so that the psychological purpose of creating this world is maintained (that is to say, this world is intended to be a psychological construct, not a model of the real multiverse if there are really many multiverses in the grand universe). In case faith must be brought into consideration, I am the God in this world simply because the planet inhabited by people represents my mind.

The tempace is filled with an exotic ematerial-ectergy that is static in most of the inside of the tempace but fluctuating (somewhat violently) on the hypersurface, which accounts for its appearance. If I decide to make art, it may be seen as filamentous strands against a black background except in the case of directly viewing the hypersurface, in which case it would be seen as a plane filled with many hills and valleys with the strands concentrated on the peaks and troughs.

However, since two dimensions is not enough to represent space, objects experience four at any given time, and the fourth is the vector from the origin to the current location in the tempace and space. Objects can enter the tempace by exchanging axes, so a three-dimensional object can become a one-dimensional object in space and a two-dimensional object in the tempace. I will have to develop this further.

20111222 Thoughts

My drive to create/craft is acting up, as it usually does following stress (an exam, an assembly, and not knowing why the stomach had a false positive half an hour before lunch). I wonder what form of art I can use to satisfy it this time. Writing poetry seems to work, but it only works to a limited extent given the slots I allot it. Keeping the considerations in mind, I open tty2, log in, and enter, “lynx http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/art,&#8221; knowing what I would find. The section labeled, “Motivated functions of art,” contains some interesting information and organizes art into six basic purposes:

  1. Communication: The focus of my drive seems to be art, not didacticism, but the fact that my didactic illustrations can be considered art reassures me to a slight extent.
  2. Entertainment: I want a contemplative focus, and observing entertainment has convinced me that it tends to reduce contemplation.
  3. Political change: This is a personal drive to create, not a drive to convince. I am not interested in dealing with the inevitable questions following politicking [sic].
  4. Psychological: It really is an issue of wanting to do something badly more than it is of appeasing the AS special interests.
  5. Subversion: The art I want to create will probably affect only myself, and I hate rebellious art in any case.
  6. Propaganda: This art is personal. It cannot fall under this category any more than it can fall under, “Subversion.”

I still wonder what form of art can soothe the desire. The drive usually falls to normal levels after some appeasement, which usually requires only 0040 or sometimes 0120. Maybe creating a personal seal (last known interest: 2008091x.1420 will

Revenio!

After a long wait of resolving (annoying in hindsight) special interests, I felt it would be appropriate to write the first post specifically concerning Asperger’s Syndrome. I will begin with what it is NOT and common misconceptions (focused on the best and most subjective primary source).

  • Interesting special interest (to the NT): Even most of us with AS do not consider models of sandwich makers too interesting or lucrative.
  • Something to be cured: Most of us would never want the advantages removed. For me, I think I would prefer to be, “lower-functioning,” if that meant I could obtain more knowledge.
  • Internet troll: Many of the, “aspies,” you see on non-specialized forums are nothing more than trolls that think having AS automatically allows for consideration as a genius. The reason this one happens so frequently is the actual condition of Münchausen’s Syndrome, which does tend to result in trolls.
  • Contagious: I honestly wonder how this spread, but to the NT’s (and socially well-adjusted people on the spectrum) reading this, there is a behavior known as mirroring. It involves copying the other person in the conversation in movement, articulation, tone, and the other social things those of us with AS generally struggle to use.
  • Caused by vaccines: We now realize that the person advocating this was in a position to obtain plenty of money. There is no definitive link between vaccines and the ASD’s, and the greater risk of a painful death by one of the diseases prevented by the vaccine greatly outweighs the ASD in many of the cases.
  • Alibi for rudeness: For me, at least, I want everyone interacting with me to tell me directly (and cleanly) about whatever wrongs I fail to see. I know I frequently state things with unfortunate implications without any of the intentions, and this is why I need outside assistance.
  • Physically visible: Although ASD’s have been correlated with youthful appearances (43.2%, but that was a somewhat subjective test), they do not necessarily provide that. Of course, it should be noted that we tend to express fewer facial expressions and that can be a good hint.
  • Sociopathy: A sociopath is antisocial, most with AS are asocial. There is a difference, and for me, it simply means wanting a nice, quiet setting where I do not have to interact with others. A sociopath, on the other hand, would not mind interacting with others if it brought personal gain.
  • Psychopathy: Those of us with AS tend to lack the comparatively excellent social skills and deceptiveness psychopaths have. In fact, that is probably why most assume that we..
  • ..Tell only the truth: Not all Aspergians have the same compulsions to speak the truth. It is only a pattern, and it probably decreases as, “normal,” is approached because many of the emotional responses NT’s provide can be understood as lies, can they not?
  • Cannot understand humor/sarcasm: A lot of us can, given enough time, understand humor or sarcasm. The only problem is that those who use sarcasm or irony for selfish reasons tend to keep the Aspergian occupied with processing the next lines of dialogue, or so I think from personal experience. Also, note that what those of us with AS consider funny can be highly idiosyncratic. Many of the things I consider funny fly over or into people’s heads.
  • All the same: If anything, the special interests and decreased social contact probably cause us to be more divergent (and therefore diverse).
  • Always introverted: Being extroverted does not necessarily mean being good at being extroverted. It just means a higher propensity to make contact.
  • Poor at verbal school subjects: On the contrary, we can do well at the rote components of language classes and can have a high writing skill:conversational skill ratio.
  • Excellent at mathematics: Frequently, those with AS suffer at mathematics, and most with ASD’s are not calendar experts. It would be a nice special interest….
  • Very severe: AS is little more than classical Autistic Disorder without the language delay. My case is a little dubious because of the timing being close to the border, but I seem to exhibit more traits of those without language delays than those with language delays. However, many of us develop coping mechanisms or resolve certain symptoms completely.
  • Not severe: Personally, I doubt most NT adolescents realize what internal conflict or having to juggle so many social behaviors is like. This is probably because of the vague criteria of the DSM-IV allowing for more people to read themselves in the criteria. Maybe I will post a detailed explanation for the criteria later.
  • No empathy: As implicitly stated before, we do have empathy, but it is generally difficult to express it verbally or physically. Perhaps this is why alexithymia is common among those with AS. We can also, “pick up,” emotions from others, but this generally happens after they have intensified to somewhat dangerous levels.